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Abuse the nonsense.
The Genolution (Genesis and Evolution)
June 3, 2010This is how I originally wrote the Genolution.
Yes, no changes. Written in 2008 when I was 13.
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I started theorizing all kinds of stuff. This consist of three parts. (Please extend your understanding, it’s written by a thirteen-year-old.)
Science and religion mixed. Yea.
Part one – Evolution and the Genesis
Most of you must be familiar with these two. I had them mixed together. Weird, huh? These two contradict each other. But I see they have harmony.
In the Genesis, God created everything in seven days and the last creation is human.
In the theory of evolution, it says that our great ancestors were bacteria, microorganisms or whatever unicellular stuff. Whatever. There was already the big wasteland now known as earth. The first living things were sea creatures. They evolved until we had our first landlubber. It evolved and we had our first flying creature and human. Until now, we’re still human.
So, mix the Genesis and theory of Evolution. We have something awesome.
God’s seven days might be billions of years. Evolution takes place for billions of years. I mean, seriously, God’s world doesn’t revolve around the sun, right? He has a different time!
God might have created every little thing by taking parts of an existing creature to form another. Where did I get that? It says in the Genesis that God put Adam to sleep and took out one of his ribs and formed His most beautiful creation, the woman a.k.a Eve.
Part dos - Elaboration. Sorry if it seems repetitive, I’m just going to make it clearer.
It says in the Genesis 2:21
“Then the Lord God made the man fall into deep sleep, and while he was sleeping, he took out one of the man’s ribs and closed up the flesh.”
I used this as one of the evidences of the Genolution. Knowing that God created woman by taking one of man’s ribs, we could say that God might have created everything by taking pieces of something to make another thing. Like in evolution, apes evolved to humans. God might have used His already existing creation, apes, to create humans by taking pieces of these apes. When He had created His first human, He might have wiped out all the other “prototypes” a.k.a. Homo erectus, Homo habilis etc.
You need to extend your understanding a lot. But with my thirteen-year-old mind, I’m afraid this is the best I could do to explain this. I still have a lot to learn! Just wait for my mind to come up with the right explanations, you’ll see!
Part trois – the character of God…and the possibility of aliens. [the craziest part of this theory]
Then God said, “Let us make man in our image, in our likeness, and let them rule over the fish of the sea and the birds of the air, over the livestock, over all the earth, and over all the creatures that move along the ground.”
Ever wondered how God looks like?
When you make something, a painting or a sculpture for example, you feel proud about it… What if someone doesn’t appreciate it? And they tear it to pieces or burn it? I would get angry, I’d get hurt. You see, we’re deteriorating God’s creations. But God is a strong being, for sure. And I bet He wouldn’t let us humans get Him down. I bet He’d create more things…better things. This is where our “aliens” enter the scene.
God loves, gets angry, gets happy, gets lonely… just like us. And it’s possible that He may have gotten sick of what we’re doing to poor old Mother Earth.
THE UNIVERSE IS HUGE! Are there aliens? Probable! Very probable.
I hope you got my drift on this one.
Thanks for reading. I hope I caused you enough confusion to prevent you from sleeping for weeks.
I dream of my murder
Why do I often dream of me murdering someone/getting murdered by someone?
Last night I dreamt that I was in a hospital and was running from a man with a sledgehammer. I locked myself in the bathroom and screamed for help. Then I remembered I left something outside the bathroom so I waited for the man to get distracted. I took my chance when he did get distracted and opened the door to try and reach for that thing. He pounded me to death.
I have also dreamt one time that I shot a guy in a hotel elevator and got away with it because I had it all planned.
My gosh.
BTW, I am going to post my old theory of genolution. I found it and I don’t feel bad about posting it anymore. It’s really fascinating. I’m actually very proud that I thought of it while I was only 13. Awesome.
Tangerine-tinted moon.
May 27, 2010I don’t ever want to see the sun again. I looked out the window and saw the moon immediately. The moon was bold yet calm in the striking teal plane, its full face was slightly covered with clouds but it still felt as though it was all that lit the sky. Stars? No, thank you.
The moon just kissed my worries away.
4:30
April 22, 2010Endless, timeless and restless,
forever moving, ever long
bound to fall, I did my best
now here I have my poem of scorn
The holes are merely illusions;
Dates in the beating heat
Repeating words I cannot fathom;
a stressing call I cannot heed.
It’s about math. x( I wrote it while I was [not] listening to the prof. I’m really good with words, but numbers… Uhh.
I need some therapy.
February 14, 2010I am absolutely pissed/depressed right now.
I have decided to stop The Dream Fish. Because I hate it, I sentence it to hell and wish to never see it again.
That’s a final decision. And if you liked that story, I apologise. I guess you’ll just have to imagine what happens to Nathan, his friends and his fish in the end. I’m sorry. I really can’t write it anymore in this condition.
Okay, I lied. I loved that story. But I really don’t want to write and see it anymore. I really am sorry.
I have a confession to make.
I am such a selfish person. I take away someone else’s happiness and even if it takes away mine too, I’d still banish it in my spite. I don’t know. I need sometime for myself again. There’s always something wrong with how I interact with others. Or worse, maybe there’s just something wrong with me.
You can’t imagine how much I hate myself right now. I am obsessed with perfection, I always feel as if I need to correct every single flaw I have. Here’s something to really piss you off, knowing that someone thinks it’s stupid that I hate myself makes me hate myself even more because that’s another flaw I have.
I don’t know if I can even talk to any of my friends right now. I need to think of a new way of how to approach them because I always end up getting hurt in the end because of them. And I get hurt even more knowing they don’t really give a care that I got hurt because it just proves that I made a mistake and have chosen my friends wrong.
I don’t know! Is this a really bad psychiatric problem? Hay.
By the way, I’ve been having really weird dreams lately.
I dreamt that I was a murderer and was the one who sent people to hell. And there was this woman I killed brutally in a peaceful neighbourhood. And I put her mutilated head on the toilet lid.
I also dreamt that there was a giant who hunted for us tiny humans to eat as if we were rats. My dreams were very graphic, the giant would tear people in half and chew the skulls and the blood would squirt all over the place and stuff. We humans also used Baygon to fight the giant. Weird, right?
I need some therapy. I am so depressed. Help.



